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Aug 29, 2014

The Ability to Respond = Responsibility

benda ni jadi lagi.

perasaan ni timbul kembali.

ingatkan dah kat tempat lain, dah makin jauh dengan benda tu.

tapi tak.

sebab, walau lari ke ceruk dunia pun, kalau Dia dah tetapkan, memang takkan dapat elak.

rapuhnya jiwa.

murahnya air mata.

tapi mana tindakan yang perlu dilaksanakan?

saya dah tak sanggup sebenarnya nak pegang benda ni.

saya tahu saya memang dah banyak mungkir janji.

saya tak lakukan apa yang sepatutnya.

saya pengecut.

saya tak layak.

saya patut terima balasan atas semua ni.

"tolonglah Aula.. hangpa kan MT."

the words sting. deeply.

i don't deserve that title.

there're always people who're better.

but then, why me?

sepatutnya saya tolak dari awal lagi.

sepatutnya saya tahu yang saya tak boleh.

all this time, i was living in the escapism. and i still am.

i evade it every single day, hoping someone would take it from me.

but eventually it keeps haunting me.




it literally means that how you're able to respond on something that befall upon you.

and somehow.. i don't have that ability.


somewhere far from here, when i would be asked, "what have you done?"
what would be my answer?

Aug 16, 2014

Wirawati..?

ehem,, mengumumkan...


haha. speechless.

tapi keputusannya tak sure lagi.

sabar ek.
habis trial nanti saye kasitau. huahua!